The last post I wrote was upbeat and happy. We had just come through some rough stuff but we were feeling confident and finally feeling some hope and feeling like we had some longer term answers. In the middle of September we learned that the sustainability of that wellness was not as solid as we thought. The full moon in September was on the 17th and it was a super moon. It marked a pretty hard crash that we hoped would only last a couple of days, but we were wrong.
It led to a period of prolonged dip in health that lead to much overwhelm and frustration. Many hours are spent in bed during this time, and just daily functions of living are hard for him to manage. He can spend about half an hour on his computer working on a client gallery at a time before he knows he has already pushed himself to far. This leads to more stress and overwhelm which leads to a higher flare up on symptoms.
How do you fight your brain when doing what you need to do is too much for your brain but not doing anything causes stress and overwhelm which is also too much for your brain? And this is the balance in life we are trying to find and live.
Kevin is still trying to do the breath work and exercises the Fibromyalgia team gave him throughout the day, but again the overwhelm takes hold. Our brains are such incredible organs made to keep us safe, but when it does too good a job, it is hard to train the brain to calm down.
We value your prayers, and when God brings us to mind we appreciate that you could pray that Kevin would remember he is safe, he has a high power above himself that he can lean on. Pray that he has the strength and stamina to do the exercises needed and that he will remember to breath. Pray that I will have the patience needed and an understanding of when to push and when to support. We know that God is the ultimate healer and I believe that this Fibromyalgia diagnosis is a puzzle piece in that plan for healing. It was easy to believe when it felt like God was working miracles, less easy to cling to that when those miracles we felt, feel like they have fallen away. Thank you, we do not take for granted the prayers of the saints.
