“Can I have your email address, I would like to send you an e-transfer”. “There is an envelop here with your name on it, it feels like cash”. “The lady’s at our church took a collection and I have something to give you”. How are you supposed to feel when you hear words like this? And to add to that there is the random gift cards that mysteriously end up in our coat pockets or get handed to us anonymously, or the envelop of money in my school mail box. The word that comes to my mind is humbled. The second word blessed.
The last month (little more) has been hard on us and I am thankful that we had some money saved up and that I was still able to work but the bills kept rolling in and I knew that the cost of finding healing for Kevin was not going to go down anytime soon and he is in no condition to go to work. So here I sit (crying on the floor) as I try to describe what I am feeling.
The truth is we need it, a part time school salary does not cover rent and insurance and phone bills and food much less all the supplements and doctor appointments that are coming our way. Every time someone says that they would like to help us financially I honestly feel relief that we will be able to stay a float but it is also so extremely humbling to continue (almost everyday right now) to have people wanting to bless us. “I have $20 in my purse, here you can have it”, “here is $40, put some gas in your car” it all means so much to us.
We want to use the money that you are blessing us with responsibly. And we want for you to be able to see where it is going towards. If you go over to the expenses page you will find a graph that shows how much the treatments are costing as well as any indirect costs that are effecting us. We are going to try to update this graph as much as possible but take a look at the bottom of the graph to see what day it was updated.
For now we are running this on our own so please bare with us as I do not always have time for everything and Kevin is not always up for doing tasks that require a lot of brain energy or screen time. We are planning to make more decisions about the future once the Lyme"s test comes back, for now we are planning to find a psychologist (the Dr. office is working on that) and waiting on the Lord to show us which path needs to be taken from here.
We have felt your prayers and support SO much, especially in the last week since I posted the first blog post. The amount of financial, physical, emotional and prayer support has been mostly overwhelming and has brought me to tears often. Every morning and every night we find three things to be grateful for and you all are often on our list. I honestly could not do this without you all, so this is my heartfelt thank you, whatever you do to support us is enough and we are grateful.
